All I Need is Love

[glamguitar_guru]

Rex was sitting with Mick and the rest of the Spiders just mulling over his thoughts whilst sipping on his drink of whiskey. His mind was a million miles away when he felt a nudge to his side snap him out of his daydream. The bus was packed full of rowdy rock stars drinking, talking, laughing and messing around but Rex was on another planet just thinking about the boy he was in love with. Was he really in love? Fuck. Even he didn't know. The nudge though--that got him looking to where his brother was offering him the bottle of whiskey to top his now empty glass up.

"What's wrong? You seem out of it this evening."

Weird could tell when his brother was thinking about something important because Rex went off into a stare, devoid of emotion and just not speaking. The younger bassist just sighed and pushed his glass away not wanting to drink anymore. No. He had to be sober for this. For what he had wanted for a long time now.

"It's the cute hairy Dane. I---I think I'm in love. All I can think about is him and I want to tell him my feelings."

Rex leaning back in the couch, not even knowing what to say. Mick was talking to Gilly about guitar technique as he found himself drifting back into that daydream once more. Talking to Ansgar and seeing that cheeky smile of his...

"Maybe you should talk to him not trashed. It might help. You need to get this off your chest and I can see it's gnawing at you."

Weird had wise words. He always did. Rex sighed and knew his brother was right. It was no good just sitting here mulling it all over going into daydreams when he could be telling the Dane how he felt. But, he was afraid Ansgar would run away or get scared. The way he looked when Rex told the Dane he loved him back at the hospital that time. Granted they were both smashed but that look----Ansgar looked scared. Would he even accept the Brit loving him? So many questions.

"I'm just afraid he'll say no and run away. I don't want to smother him and---"

Weird put a hand on Rex's arm.

"Go and talk to him. Now. You need to."

Rex knew his brother was right and got up, taking a deep breath, wanting to seek out the drunken drummer. Hopefully, he wasn't too trashed yet so Rex could actually talk to him properly. Well, it was now or never as Rex made his way towards where the Danes were sitting, coming over and offering a smile.

"I want to talk to Ansgar. Is he here?"

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[glamguitar_guru]

"No, I'm not stoned nor am I drunk. Ansgar I---"

The Brit felt his words hitch in his throat, lost for a moment while he collected himself. This wasn't easy for him because his heart was now hammering inside his chest as he tried to focus himself. The Dane was so cute when he squealed or squirmed away from being tickled.

"---it can't wait until morning. It's very important to me and it's something I've wanted to tell you for a long time now."

[lynoprorer]

"Fuck." Ansgar let out a sigh and rolled over on his back. "What can't wait you diva princess? You sound like Mikkel pestering Sigurd."

That las part though a bit of a jab was said with amusement. He loved watching Mikkel drive the Swede into madness.

[glamguitar_guru]

"Who are you calling a diva princess? Naughty Dane."

Rex giggled and gently poked Ansgar in the side softly. He knew how much the Dane was ticklish so didn't want to set him off too badly, more a slight teasing. Everyone knew how much Mikkel pestered Sigurd and it was amusing to say the least.

"You're so cute, Ansgar and---I really like you."

The Brit knew he would have to use the word love once more and hope it wouldn't scare the Dane into silence or worse.

[lynoprorer]

"You." Ansgar was squealing and wiggling around from that poke. He's still sleepy and doesn't want to wake up.

He giggled and leaned back in to relax. The Dane wanted to sleep more but he knew that the Brit wanted to talk. "Torden calls you my dirty puppy."

Ansgar started to giggle but it was true that Rex did end up following him around a lot.

[glamguitar_guru]

"He does? That man is cheeky but not as cheeky as you."

Rex knew he followed Ansgar around a lot and for good reason; he was in love with the hairy Dane and had been for a good few months now. Just watching and admiring from afar before the whole fingers in the ripped pants drunken adventure. Then, the hospital where Rex bashed his head against the bed whilst trashed out of his mind.

"I woke you up to discuss something important. It's about how I feel about you."

The Brit was nervous but wanted to tell the Dane this. He had to. Weird had poked his brother into finally expressing his feelings.

[lynoprorer]

"You do follow me around and stick your hands in my pants." Ansgar giggled while rubbing his eyes. It was obvious that the Brit wanted him to be awake, more awake than he currently was.

"How you feel?" The Dane laid there staring at the Brit and felt worry bubble up when he saw the nervous look on Rex's face. Slowly, he pulled himself up to sit up a little in the bunk. His head was pounding and he rubbed the heel of his hands into his temples for a moment to try and clear his head.

[glamguitar_guru]

"I can't help it when you have huge great holes in your jeans! Too tempting."

Ansgar was cute when he was still half-awake and rubbing his eyes. Rex knew he'd have to answer the Dane so took a deep breath before letting it out slowly. Why was this so hard? Maybe because Ansgar was not drunk and the shit just got real. The Brit's emotions now wide awake.

"Ansgar I---I love you. Actually think you're so cute and hairy and----well, I really love you."

The Brit's cheeks heating up and his eyes slightly wide.

[lynoprorer]

"What was that Mikkel said about Sigurd and his jeans... hanelomme." Ansgar started gigling. "You and Sigurd think broken jeans are hanelomme... cock pockets."

Ansgar wasn't being at all serious at the moment while he tried to wake up. The words got his eyes wide and a spike of adrenaline that woke him up in a hurry. The Dane's face filling up with worry and way too many emotions.

"I..." Ansgar sighed and he looked down at his hands. "Are you trying to tell me you.. I don't know.. you want me to leave Torden for you or something?" The Danes all knew the Brits tended to be very monogamous and angry over anything else. Ansgar was trying to think if he could walk away from Torden and still be here seeing him all the time. It made a lump form in his throat and his heart ache.

[glamguitar_guru]

"Hanelomme? Cock pockets?"

Rex couldn't help but snort out in laughter at that. It really was amusing and the Brit did seem to want to slip his hands into the Dane's ripped pants any chance he got. But then he noticed Ansgar's face drop and instantly become worried. Had Rex said it all wrong?

"No I---I wouldn't want you to leave Torden or feel uncomfortable because I know you Danes are like a close knit family. I just love you and want to become your boyfriend if you want that that too."

The Brit was panicking a little because what if Ansgar didn't want to be the bassist's boyfriend? Or, that he didn't feel the same way? So many questions now swimming around in his head.

[lynoprorer]

"Yes, the pockets you stick your hands in to grab cock." Ansgar was laughing, albeit sleepily.

He was awake enough to see the panic in Rex's expression and shook his head. "I know Torden doesn't mind.. but.. are you ok with me having another boyfriend?"

That, he supposed, was the part that made him worry. Torden was such a part of his life, such a good part of it for so long, that he couldn't imagine being without him. At least not now anyway. Maybe that would change but at the moment Ansgar didn't think it would.

[glamguitar_guru]

"Your pants are so cute just like you. All scruffy and adorable."

Rex just caressed the Dane's cheek slightly before sighing. He was jumping in at the deep end here because the Brit had never actually dated a man before. Being bi-curious he was taking the first steps in actually being with a man and it felt overwhelming but in a good way.

"I've never had a boyfriend before since I never even knew I liked boys. Being bi-curious this just makes me more excited about being part of your life. If that makes sense. So, I should be ok with you having another boyfriend because this is all new to me too. You Danes are all like glue, stuck to one another all the time. I just---really like you."

The Brit only ever having dated girls before but never in a polyamorous relationship.

[lynoprorer]

"My pants are comfortable."

Ansgar leaned into the touch and then simply leaned completely against Rex. He's still exhausted and tired despite being awake enough to hold this conversation.

"Maybe you should start slow?" Then Ansgar giggled. "Was that kiss on the floor drunk your first boy kiss?"

[glamguitar_guru]

"I am trying to start slow and understand my feelings for you but I had to tell you. It's been a few months and I've said nothing because I've never had the chance really. That and I've been too shy to speak up."

Weird being the one to poke Rex into actually speaking to the Dane to explain his feelings. It had to be said.

"Yes, it was my first boy kiss and it was with you."

Rex giggling and blushing a little, leaning in to kiss Ansgar's lips softly.

[lynoprorer]

"I know your country doesn't like men together." Ansgar didn't know much about Britain but that he had learned from Rik when they talked about Billy.

After the kiss Ansgar poked at Rex's chest. "I've never had a virgin boy in my bunk."

[glamguitar_guru]

"My country is pretty strict on that. Bullshit but there we go. Weird told me all about how Mick held in his feelings for Ziggy the whole time they were a band up until now. Gilly too with Hunter."

Rex hated that but knew that the UK wasn't as nearly as liberal and open than the Scandinavian countries. Maybe that would change in the future though.

"Who are you calling a virgin? You cheeky Dane. I've slept with girls before just not boys. So, I suppose I am a virgin for boy sex."

The bassist smirked and then slid his fingers in Ansgar's hair.

[lynoprorer]

"Rik mentioned Billy having a lot of problems at home and that's why Ollie upset him so much." Ansgar didn't know the ins and outs of it all but there was relationship stress from the culture.

"You." Ansgar laughed and laid there against Rex's shoulder and chest. He glanced up at the Brit. "Do you think you are a top or a bottom?"

[glamguitar_guru]

"Yeah, I can understand him telling Rik about all the bullshit that goes down back home. Us Brits are used to being closeted and not revealing that we might be gay or whatever."

Was Rex gay? He didn't think so. Being bi-curious meant you were bi, didn't it? Even he was a little confused on it all unlike his brother who was totally straight. Ansgar's question had the bassist giggling.

"I don't honestly know. When I've been with girls I've always topped because that's normal but now I'm with a boy----let's see what happens shall we?"

Rex kissing down the Dane's neck getting some of that blond hair tickling his face.

[lynoprorer]

"We have limits too. Torden gets harassed because of his behavior." Other countries were more open but they weren't without their problems. Ansgar briefly thought about his family then quickly shoved all those thoughts away.

"Did you come here for a confession or to get laid?" Ansgar barely got that out before the neck kiss had him squaling and squirming away.

[glamguitar_guru]

Rex stroked Ansgar's face softly and sighed. There was still a lot of stigma around two men together back in the Brit's own country but didn't want to think about that now. Ronno fucked Ziggy live on stage! If that wasn't liberating then Rex didn't know what was.

"I came here to tell you I love you, Danish King Ansgar."

The bassist giggled and then moved so that he was sliding up next to the Dane, wrapping his arms around the shorter man.

[lynoprorer]

"King>" Ansgar started t laugh as he leaned into Rex as the Brit wrapped his arms around him. Laying here being help made him feel sleepy again.

He thought about the comments from Rex and sighed. "I don't know you enough."

It wasn't that he didn't like Rex but he didn't know the Brit enough to feel in love him.

[glamguitar_guru]

"I know we've only just met but this is how I feel. I'd like to get to know you better, Ansgar. Hang out with you and your Dane friends."

Rex was serious in his words and couldn't help but nuzzle in close, kissing the Dane's neck. All the hair tickled his nose which caused a giggle to spill from the Brit's lips.

"You smell nice."

[lynoprorer]

"You can always come hang out with us."

Ansgar smiled and sunk farther back against Rex. Being held this way felt good. The kisses kept hitting places where the Dane was ticklish.

"You must like the smell of mule." Ansgar giggled and pulled away to look at Rex. "Why don't you lay down here with me? I want to lay down."

And maybe go back to sleep but Ansgar was also thinking that it might do Rex some good to learn intimacy with a man the way he had, starting slow, sleeping beside someone, and letting things be natural in however they progressed.

[glamguitar_guru]

"I want to. Hanging around my brother is boring since all he talks about is his bass and how beautiful Gloria is. You're a cute, fluffy Dane."

Rex wanted to lay down with Ansgar and get to know the boy intimately as well as romantically. His fluffy blond hair tickling the Brit's nose as he snuggled in close, wrapping both arms around the younger man. Maybe if he slept beside the Dane then he'd bond even closer with him.

"Do you snore because I know I do."

A cheeky giggle slipped from Rex's lips as he stroked Ansgar's back.

[lynoprorer]

"Rik says Gloria is sweet and mischievous like he is." Ansgar could believe it. He saw it in her eyes sometimes.

The Dane let out a yawn and then snuggled in with Rex as he felt the tug of sleep. "Torden's never mentioned it."

Ansgar didn't know but when he was very drunk he did, most people did. Usually though he doesn't. "I know my brother snores a lot."